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I Didn't Survive

Emerging Whole After Deception, Persecution, and Hidden Abuse

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9h 41m
English
ISBN: 978-1-64689-834-3

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It’s hard enough having a painful secret that you are terrified of sharing.

It’s even harder when you find yourself in the international limelight as the advocate wife of a Christian hero imprisoned for his faith.

The worst part is fearing that, if you did share this secret, it might devastate the lives of your family and close friends, alienate tens of thousands of active supporters, and cause persecuted people around the world to become even more vulnerable.

Naghmeh Abedini Panahi lived in constant tension from the irreconcilable realities playing out in her own life, in her family life, in the conduct of others, and on the worldwide stage as she interacted with power brokers and well-known religious leaders. Tension involving: Steadfastly honoring God versus being carried away by the tide of circumstances Personal reality versus public persona Genuine faith versus hypocritical religion Truth and caring versus the end justifying the means Obedience to God versus loyalty to others For Naghmeh, it all came to a breaking point, and the only way through it was to die. Not physically, but in experiencing a death and rebirth in her understanding of God, her faith, and her identity as a woman. “I can't tell you how I was able to make it through, because I didn’t,” she writes. “Like the Phoenix rising from the ashes, the new me emerged from the catastrophe of my marriage.”

I Didn’t Survive: Emerging Whole After Deception, Persecution, and Hidden Abuse is Naghmeh’s firsthand story, which takes you from war-torn Tehran to the quiet Midwestern U.S. to the halls of power in Washington D.C. It vividly describes the Islamic upbringing that shaped her, her unexpected conversion to Christianity, and the events that led to her marriage to Saeed Abedini, a magnetic pastor in the Iranian underground church. The book details Saeed’s arrest and imprisonment for preaching the gospel, her fateful decision to share the truth about her husband, her betrayal and abandonment by former supporters, and the new life of advocacy for women that has arisen from the brokenness.

Through the pain, abuse, and loss, Naghmeh clearly demonstrates what it means for us to find our true identity in God, discover the protective care God has for His children, and participate in sharing the love and healing He desires to bring to the world.

Tracks
  1. Opening Credits
  2. Note to the Reader
  3. Dedication
  4. Prologue
  5. Chapter 1: Child of Revolution and War
  6. Chapter 2: A Long, Bitter Winter
  7. Chapter 3: "We Can't Stay Here Any Longer"
  8. Chapter 4: Respite from War
  9. Chapter 5: "God Loves You"
  10. Chapter 6: The Opportunity to Dream
  11. Chapter 7: Escaping Jesus
  12. Chapter 8: Life in Idaho
  13. Chapter 9: "Show Them Who You Are"
  14. Chapter 10: Discovering My Calling
  15. Chapter 11: Back to Iran
  16. Chapter 12: God's Persistent Call
  17. Chapter 13: Meeting Saeed
  18. Chapter 14: Falling in Love
  19. Chapter 15: The Heartbeat of Change
  20. Chapter 16: A Proposal?
  21. Chapter 17: Pushing the Boundaries
  22. Chapter 18: Revival in the House Church
  23. Chapter 19: Planting Churches and Evangelizing
  24. Chapter 20: Arrested and Tested
  25. Chapter 21: The Wedding
  26. Chapter 22: Honeymoon from Hell
  27. Chapter 23: Begging for Love
  28. Chapter 24: Falling Apart
  29. Chapter 25: The Beating
  30. Chapter 26: Church Split 2.0
  31. Chapter 27: A Baby Born in Chaos
  32. Chapter 28: An Alternate Universe
  33. Chapter 29: Attempted Escape
  34. Chapter 30: Trapped in Iran
  35. Chapter 31: The Phone Call
  36. Chapter 32: A Different Kind of Arrest
  37. Chapter 33: Keeping Saeed Alive
  38. Chapter 34: Tortured for Christ
  39. Chapter 35: The Campaign
  40. Chapter 36: A New Friend
  41. Chapter 37: Confronting the Iranian Presidential Delegation
  42. Chapter 38: Hospital Revelation
  43. Chapter 39: A New Prison
  44. Chapter 40: Downward Spiral
  45. Chapter 41: President Obama
  46. Chapter 42: God’s Daughter
  47. Chapter 43: Confession
  48. Chapter 44: The Emails
  49. Chapter 45: Released from Prison
  50. Chapter 46: An Unwanted Divorce
  51. Chapter 47: In the Wilderness
  52. Chapter 48: A New Kind of Ministry
  53. Chapter 49: Processing the Past
  54. Chapter 50: A Renewed Vision
  55. Epilogue
  56. Closing Credits
  57. I Didn't Survive Sample
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