Even If He Doesn't

How can I approach God if I’m struggling to believe in His goodness?

So much of our belief can be formulaic. We often think that if we do A, B, and C, then God will do X, Y, and Z. We check things off the “Good Christian Checklist,” trusting we’ll be okay, and our trials will be minimal. But when our experiences inevitably deviate from that belief, our trust in God often crumbles. After a series of life-altering trials--including a devastating diagnosis--uncovering faith in the cracks of pain is something Kristen LaValley knows well.

In Even If He Doesn’t, Kristen will: share her vulnerable and honest story unpack the nuances of suffering and faith, holding space for the tension between the two reveal how engaging the gentleness and grace of Christ in our suffering offers a surprising path to healing remind us that when our belief is reduced to a formula, we rob ourselves of a faith that’s enriched by suffering, not crippled by it Those in the midst of heartache will find strength and renewal as Kristen approaches the complexity of suffering with compassion, guiding us to endure while not forsaking the joy, hope, and peace of those marked by Jesus.

1. Opening Credits
2. Dedication
3. Author's Note
4. Foreword
5. Introduction
6. Chapter 1: When Your Image of God Shatters
7. Chapter 2: What Crisis Reveals
8. Chapter 3: When There's No Good Choice
9. Chapter 4: The Darkness of the Valley
10. Chapter 5: Peach Iced Tea and Other Ebenzers
11. Chapter 6: Deep Cries to Deep
12. Chapter 7: The Risk of Engagement
13. Chapter 8: When Joy Locks Hands with Grief
14. Chapter 9: The Sacredness of Shared Pain
15. Chapter 10: The Glory around Us
16. Closing Credits